I have baby brain, only not the pregnancy type, the TTC type. In this week alone I have had at least 3 dreams about being pregnant, having a baby, etc. Last night's dream was so vivid. This is CD11 so I am fairly certain that my dreams aren't trying to tell me something.
This is something I want so, so badly. Some days my patience wears thin and I really feel like all this waiting is causing too much stress. But what other choice do I have? I daydream and dream at night about what our lives will be like with a baby. I think about holding the baby, waking up in the morning with the baby, feeding the baby, dressing the baby, changing the baby's diaper, going places with the baby, seeing my husband with the baby. I don't know if this is healthy!
I lost my IF injection virginity 2 nights ago. DH administered my first ever shot (Menopur). I was more nervous about mixing it right and following the steps correctly than I was about the actual shot. It was pretty easy, and afterwords we thought to ourselves, that was it? Now what?
Tomorrow we go to our first monitoring appointment to see how things are looking and when we can expect to have the IUI. I hope everything looks great. I usually don't ovulate until around CD16-18 so it may not be for another week. But who knows, maybe the Clomid/Menopur has sped things up?
I am trying so hard to just live life as I normally would, but my mind is preoccupied with baby this, baby that. Some days I am good and I think about it minimally, but others, like today, I am a mess. How am I going to get through all of this waiting!?