I want to first thank you all for your amazingly supportive comments. I was scared in sharing my doubts/fears especially to some readers who would give anything to be pregnant. You all have been so consistent in your support and that means SO MUCH to me. I am doing a lot better today. I really think that yesterday was just overwhelming and I didn't have enough information or a plan to feel secure in (and I have been feeling quite emotional these days). Here are some updates since yesterday's post:
-Talked to my RE--what she shared with me: I have a 5% risk of miscarrying each baby individually, and rarely (if never) someone can loose all 3...she has only seen this once and it was with a woman over 40. It is still possible that triplets can naturally reduce to twins, and then even a singleton but the chances of that happening are very small. She also told me that triplets are usually born 2 months early (yikes--that is scary).
-I have one more ultrasound at the RE clinic next Thursday. It is bittersweet to move on. They helped us achieve our dreams (and then some).
-I have an appointment with a high risk ob/gyn for 3/15 (at 10 weeks). I am very happy about this. I want someone who has seen it all-- every odd, weird, risky situation.
-Having a plan is making me feel better
-My CF doc doesn't think that a triplet pregnancy will affect me much different than a singleton would except that with a bigger belly it will put more pressure on my lungs which might make breathing more difficult--gee, that's doesn't sound scary at all! But she didn't seem to have serious concerns which was both surprising and relieving.
-I am beginning to imagine life with triplets...some thoughts have been scary and some have been fun and endearing.
-Last weekend we went to Babies R Us to get Preggie Pops and took a look around. It was pretty crazy to imagine that we will need 3 of everything. And you have to special order a triple stroller btw. But you also get 10% off anything over $50 if you have multiples. So I learned some things while I was there. Also, btw Preggie Pops don't really work that well (at least not for me).
-I feel good both physically and emotionally today. I know I have said before that feeling good scares me, but I am learning to take the good days when I get them and enjoy them.