What a roller coaster. One second I feel confident, hopeful, positive, "at peace" and excited about our IUI as the next step. But literally the next second I sometimes feel scared, overwhelmed, pessimistic, impatient, doubtful, and hopeless.
Where is the off switch on the brain that shuts up the part that is ruminating about these things? I guess if my job was a little more intellectually stimulating I would have something to occupy my mind...but that is another issue entirely.
And as an aside...I have zero followers currently, which is fine because I have just started this blog. But I found it weird that in previous posts I have asked questions to "an audience" which is probably non existent at this point. So right now I feel like I am really talking to myself. If anyone is out there or reading these posts after the fact, please still feel free to answer my questions or comment, even if it is months after the post. It would make me feel a little less crazy :)